Monday Minutes

My time off has sure been interesting so far. Saturday we went to the most unbelievable wedding EVER. I could not get out of there soon enough. I love the bride, but her family is nuts! Sunday I rememberd how nice a bike ride down the Cape Cod Canal to the beach can be, and how much the ride back (against the wind) totally sucks! Oh well, good exercise. I am sick, I would do it every day if I could.

It seems I have a lot to do on my vacation. I have to learn all I can about Apple Computers so I can help a friend find the right one for her photo work. I know NOTHING about Apple. I am lucky I got my damn IPOD working properly. I have a bunch of appointments with doctors, both for me and the dogs. Most important of all, I have quite a few friends I need to catch up with soon. I caught myself thinking today, "it's already almost Tuesday!" How aweful is that?? I am thinking my vacation is close to over and it's only just begun. Oye, I must smack myself.

I realized something recently, totally unrelated to my time-off, but nevertheless worth mentioning. I learned that forgiveness is more about forgiving oneself for the wrongs done, than for forgiving the wrong-doer. Now that thought has nothing to do with serious crimes against someone, but I mean personal relationships, where some malice has come about. For so long I thought I had to find a way to forgive some of those who have hurt me in the past, yet in reality I need to forgive myself for allowing those actions to occur. I saw the negative, I knew it should not happen, yet I allowed it into my life. Human Nature? I am still working on forgiving me for past mistakes, but like I say of those who have not always seemed to be doing what I saw as right, they (and me) were doing the best they could at the time. Very difficult concept to accept....but time will tell and relief will come.

Let Freedom Ring!

Today at 3pm begins my "vacation". I am not going away anywhere, but I am still very much looking forward to some time off. It has been a stressful week, from finding out I have to have some surgery (nothing major) to worrying about one of the dog's and her nasty eye infection. I am attending a wedding tomorrow, then the rest of the week is up in the air. I am hoping to get some extra sleep and spend as much time outdoors as I possibly can.

The Blahs Need to Vamoose!

I am getting that blah/discontented feeling again. The fact that NOTHING seemed to go well yesterday could be part of it. One of the dogs has a major eye infection, work just totally sucked, my computer at home decided not to work again (time to get the hammer) and Dyna Dog ate one of my Mom's books, that I totally wanted to read. I am hoping my upcoming time-off from work will help. I will not call it vacation, as I will not be going away, just not going to work for a week. I am hoping for good weather and some time in my kayak and on my bike. I am looking forward to a Melissa Ethridge concert. Mom and I are going...girl's night. I think it will be fun.

Tonight the gals from Bookclub (or as the men call it, the Cult) are going to dinner and then to see Sex in the City, the movie. I never watched that show new, but do enjoy the re-runs. We will have fun, we always do. The ladies are good for me. I told them the new song by Lee Ann Rimes "A Good Friend and a Glass of Wine" reminds me of those ladies. We will have a nice dinner, some beer or wine and relax at the movies. I could use a laugh, those ladies always provide one!

Fried Friday

Whoever came up with the concept of "Thirsty Thursday" obviously did not have to get up for work on Friday morning. And whoever invented Tequila...I despise you right now. (Yes, I know it is my own fault for drinking so much, but damn it, I do not want to take responsibility at the moment.) Girl's Night Out is great, but not on a work night. Yep, I am old and lame. I am ok with that! It was a good time though, so once the nausea passes, it will be worth it.

My real concern came when my Guy told me that I got up in the middle of the night mumbling to myself and went downstairs for awhile. He has no idea where I went or what I was doing, but I eventually came back. I thought at first he was messing with me, but nope. I have NO IDEA what I was doing and the dogs are not talking. I hope I did not go outside or something. My Guy offered to tie me to the bed at night, but somehow I do not think he was looking out for MY best interest. Men!

I am not sure what is up for this weekend. I was hoping to get out on the kayak again, but Sunday is not looking so great as far as weather. I am going to get some batteries for my camera, those rechargeables are not working, so back to the lithium I go. Of course all week with no camera I have seen so many things I would have loved to photograph. Next year...new camera. One with it's own rechargeable battery and a really good zoom lense. :)

Winding Down

It has been a busy few days for me. Friday I was off from work, got my hair cut and then went to Boston with friends for dinner and the Red Sox game. It was a disappointing game, but a fun time with the ladies. Saturday I spent some time with the dogs, did the usual chores and then headed to CV's for a Triple Crown Party. Another disappointing sports event, but a really fun time with friends. By Sunday morning, I was beat, but off we went for a day of boating. Today was the maiden voyage for my new kayak. In between being the official "spotter" for those skiing or wakeboarding, I was out trolling the lake in my kayak. It was a beautiful day, but I am left with no physical energy, only my mind has anything left to give at this moment.

I wanted to stay home tonight, have a nice dinner and relax, which I have. I turned on the tv only to watch a beautiful, yet sad movie, "Mrs. Paltry at the Claremont". Though I would much rather think of the fun times I had this weekend and attempt to ignore the horrific sunburn I got on my bike ride yesterday, this movie has left me wondering what it is like to grow old. Many wonder what it would be like to know when he/she is going to die. I would not want to know, but what happens when one is elderly and knows that time is fleeting? In the movie, it seemed the elderly characters were all waiting to die. One woman stated, as the passed away in Mrs. Paltry's arms, that she has been waiting a long time for this moment. It was so sad to me, but how could I understand how she would have felt, as I have not lived through so much, lived such a long life. Compared to the senior characters in this movie, I have barely lived in my 31 years. It is amazing how time flies, how things change, how people change. No matter how long I live, I hope I continue to change, continue to grow. Two steps forward, sometimes one step back, yet there is still progress. I have to remind myself of that on a daily basis. Don't sweat the small stuff, because in the end, none of it matters. Right now matters. Right now I know that I am loved, that I am comfortable, that I am determined. Determined to do what? I am determined to be here, in the now....content.

A Few More Pics

Someday I am going to get a camera with a fabulous zoom lense...but until then, this is all I could do.

The New Addition

I took a couple of pics of the dogs this past weekend. Here are some to start. I wanted the 3 together, but only got Dyna and Vaquita so far.