Some Things Never Change

I try to think positive. I try to believe things will get better, but lately...bah! I still have no idea when my job switch will occur. This is my third transfer within this company and the third time I have been screwed around with by the powers that be. Some things never change.

I am the Queen of interesting email signatures at work. I love changing them on a near weekly basis, modifying the font and changing the little picture, depending on my mood. Well, no more! It is against company policy.

Note: The use of icons, i.e., pictures of phones, faxes, and trucks, logos, happy faces, etc. are prohibited. The use of colored, textured, pictured or backgrounds with graphics are also prohibited.

They have created an utterly boring template signature, which we MUST all use. There will be NO INDIVIDUALITY in this company. Fun of any kind must be stomped. We are merely minions to a huge corporation; drones, if you will. It is a sad day when I must delete my utterly adorable signature creations. A sad day indeed. Some things never change.

I was told that I could expect reimbursement on a load to someone, which is nearly 2 years past due. When I read the message stating I could expect a weekly check, my first thought was...same old story, different day. Part of me did want to believe things had changed, that this person would follow through on an old promise. Alas, two weeks later, nothing. Am I surprised? No. Am I disappointed? I can not help it, yes I am. I want to believe in people. Sometimes it just does not help. Could there be a logical explanation? Possibly, but how many times can one be burned by false-hope before finally accepting the truth. Some things never change.

I lost my mojo, yet again. This slump I have fallen into seems to be unending. I am letting things get to me, which a year ago would have rolled off my chest. What happened? I think a combination of a lot of different stresses and events over the past several months has just brought me down. I have been here before and just need to slap myself out of it. I need to stop dwelling on the little things and remember things are getting better, I have more positives than negatives and I am learning. I forget that sometimes. Some things never change.